 aka stel, stelbelle, stellar, skittles august 29th, 1994; twenty-one going on eighty-six • virgo huntington beach, born & bred peter + rose, marcus, lainee. & xander {breakdown} smitten kitten + kinsey 1 sales assc. @ by the book uc irvine: developmental psychology '16 (withdrew aug '15) aslan - goldendoodle & dinah - sphynx istj-t, bookworm, candy addict, turtle, tea aficionado, movie adapation snob, couch potato extraordinaire, sailor scout, destroyer of burritos, netflix addict {+}
a second generation bibliophile, stella has been an admirer of literature for as long as she can remember. from obsessively reading dr. seuss as a child (and still as an adult, let's be real) to her parents introducing her to the classics at a young age, her appreciation for books has only grown as she has gotten older. they are undeniably her go-to when she is upset or needs a good chuckle to bring her out of a funk. while she may be attending college with eyes on the prize of a coveted psychology degree, her heart is set on taking over the family business from her parents one day and being around to help future generations cultivate a love of reading similar to her own. looking at stella, or really the demir family in general, you wouldn't assume that they were, in fact, an upper middle class family by name. she has never been quick to admit that her father comes from money; the family has always preferred to focus on keeping the business afloat with a hefty savings account waiting in the wings should they get into trouble. only those closest to the family, including one or two of stella's most trusted friends know "the family secret." stella only has one secret and she has worked hard to keep it that way. only one person outside of the family (and a list of medical professionals) are aware that she became severely depressed as a side effect of her anxiety and attempted to overdose at age seventeen. thankfully, this led to a prescription regimen and a recommendation of therapy though she only attended two sessions before she convinced her parents to let her try just the medication for a while. keeping up with her xanax routine worked moderately well for both her social anxiety disorder and depression until late july 2015 when everything hit her again full force. luckily, after a particularly bad attack, she made the decision to get checked out again. following the visit, her medication was changed (to zoloft) and it was recommended that she attend a cognitive behavioral therapy group twice per week. she isn't a fan of talking about her issues, and even less so in front of her peers, but she's determined to get better. began journaling at at age fourteen and still frequently does so. the stacks of notebooks in her closet contain everything from brags to cathartic ramblings to short stories. to this day, she has never let a single soul read anything contained inside those pages. met gabe when he would frequently come over to hang out with her older brother, marcus. gabe and marcus may have been teammates, but he and stella immediately bonded (even though she was sure that her younger status probably made him view her as the annoying tag-along). for eight years, he has been the one person who has never caused her trust to waver even a smidgen. throughout all of her struggles with anxiety (and worse) he has been right beside her, helping her along every step of the way. personality: stubborn and will dig her heels in until she feels that she has enough facts to be swayed in another direction. typically reserved the first few times she's around someone new until she knows that there is common ground. intimidated by large crowds unless someone is brave enough to take on the task of distracting her and helping her to settle in. has, on more than occasion, been forced to stutter her way through making new acquaintances because her limited social skills with strangers have failed her. once she gets to know someone, all filters go out the window and she's fairly bubbly, loud, and causes laughter more often than not. thanks to her shy nature, she doesn't take compliments very well and normally brushes them off believing that they're just being used to placate her and make her refrain from being so critical of herself and her actions. a very typical virgo, she very rarely discusses her feelings with someone else, and instead chooses to either let word vomit flow in the form of some cathartic journaling or lives in a state of denial where she convinces herself that her life is just peachy and she doesn't want to punch a pillow into submission. her anxious nature has led to a nervousness of the unknown; she prefers to have all the facts and make a detailed plan. needless to say, surprises of most sorts do not top any list for her.
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